im going to start the blog by saying ..
pls dont assume anything ..
pls dnt associate the below with anyone
pls dnt ask me about it

i hate negativity.
i always was a cheerful happy person
i love to make those ard me happy and laugh and im always with a smile on my face
thats me , thats Shahira . and i love me .

but over the years i feel i lost a little part of me .
i been through situations that test my patience, play with my emotions and brought tears to ma eyes.
i felt negative.

when i do.. i tend to keep it to myself . iniatially i used to spill it out to my close ones..
soon.. i just get sick of it i end up keeping it maself
at times im numbed. its like im used to it, im not affected.
i botttle up the emotions .
i laugh ,remained strong

and during these sad nights.. sickeningly it takes me longer to doze off..
i start to wonder why im facing n receiving all this
i list down where i went wrong
want to eliminate the source of my misery, but somehow i feel i cant . its like not letting me go
im hooked.

-for things to change, you must change- , a phrase that i strongly believe in
i did change hoping for things to change..
i became a nicer human being , lookout for ppl ard me
nicer to my parents and my loved ones
became more tolerant

tings did change a little for me ..
but once in a while .. the misery returns to eat my everybit
makes me feel so horrible
so worthless.
so upset.
soo upset.

i dnt noe what to do ..
im afraid i'd make the wrong decision that might affect me terribly

i hate this negative feeling .im gng stop and read a book . bye .

&Yours TrulyY

I work Wonders

i cant live without food. food!
food!
food!

&WishesY

To be 60kilograms!
To have bike liscence
Own a Jeep/ Jaguar
To own a pet Bear
To run to a rainforest, lie on a lion's stomach and drink mango juice
To have beautiful skin forever
To marry someone i can really see myself living with and be happily blessed with
To have another baby sister
Try all the tastiest, weirdest, juciest delicacies in the world !
For Chocolates to have 0 calories.
To be a great singer
Travel to Morrocco, Egypt, Turkey, Madinah, Nepal
Never to have tubes inserted into my nose, ears, ANYWHERE ELSE!
to help everyone and anyone in need that crosses my path, as long as i am able to
To die a happy and peaceful death

&Talk